How To Be Confident And Humble At The Same Time
"I want the confidence to be strong."
I have always struggled with confidence. It probably has a lot to do with growing up as an overweight kid. I always felt fat. I always felt like I wasn't good enough. I remember even praying to God over and over to come into my life and let me into heaven. I thought I wasn't good enough and the only way to get in was to beg. I've done a lot of counseling, reading and reflecting over the years and I'm finally getting to a place in my 40's where I like myself. I have learned that I am enough, just as I am, because I am a creation of God. That is where my worth comes from. Not from other people, which is where I use to try to get it from being the people pleaser that I am. I see God in my life every day, in little things, and that reminds me that I matter. And since I matter, then I have the tools to be more confident and assertive in my life. I'm still a people pleaser, but I am working on it. I am learning to stand up for myself when I need to.
"But the humility to be wrong."
My biggest fear of becoming confident was that I would become a jerk. I saw confidence as a means to be cocky, to operate like the world revolves around you, and to walk all over the people in your life. No way did I want to be that guy! So to compensate, I would make sure I remained as humble as possible. But then being humble started to mean putting myself down. So in my efforts to not become a self-centered, arrogant person, I became a depressed, beaten down, and incredibly frustrated person. I was miserable.
"I want to lead and listen, have the creed and vision."
I had to learn that it is ok to be confident. Matter of fact, you can be confident and still be humble. Confidence does not have to equal arrogance. You can be confident in yourself, love and respect yourself deeply, and still be a humble servant to others. I'd even say you HAVE to learn to love yourself first in order to be a humble servant to others. I know from experience that tearing yourself down to lift others up only makes you a resentful, bitter person. And a resentful, bitter person is not one who wants to serve. This person becomes antisocial and selfish, becoming the complete opposite of the person you set out to be.
My song "Creed and Vision" is a hip-hop mantra that we can all say to ourselves daily to remind us we need to be confident AND humble every day. And despite what I use to think, it is possible and even necessary to be both to become the people God created us to be.
"It's ok to know our strength.
It's ok to know our weakness.
We use our weakness to make each other stronger.
'Cuz if one shines, we all shine longer."
Creed and Vision - The new single from Chris Swan.
Coming June 1, 2018!
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