Do you ever feel like this?
Do you ever just start to freak out because you realize the madness is never going to end. Your schedule is full everyday of stuff that you don't really want to do. And the way you get through it is by telling yourself you just have to power through and then it will be ok. But then you realize, no it won't. Because as soon as I'm done pushing through, the whole cycle starts all over again. It's never going to stop. I'm never going to get a break. And you hold out hope that the special thing you are working on is going to come save the day. But then you realize you are 41 and it hasn't saved the day yet. What if it never does? Can I really live in this misery every day for the rest of my life? I don't think I can handle that yet but what choice do I have? I have to do the things I have to do. But I can't stand the thought of doing them one more day. Then panic and depression sets in. It feels like there is no way to fix this.
This is, honestly, a thought I have several times a week. I get scared that I am never going to achieve my goals. I get scared that I'm never going to win and scared that I am going to be stuck in this rat race forever. That's when it is more important than ever to make sure I am living with purpose. I have to have a goal in site. I need to know what I am working for. If I can see that light at the end of the tunnel, then I can push through for one more day. It's not easy, but it's worth it.
And think of the other option: to give up completely. I could throw my hands up and give up, but what is the point of that? What does that really solve? Without purpose, life becomes meaningless real quick. And that's when I find myself in bed eating ice cream all day.
You are not alone.
We all struggle with feeling overwhelmed. We all find ourselves stuck in a crazy cycle that we think will last forever. But the truth is, it doesn't have to. You do have the power to change it. Change is not always easy but you can start right now. Today. Find your purpose. Find what really makes you excited. Set your goals. And then keep your eye on the prize. Be happy you get to work so hard at something you love. That's how you change the world. And that is how you get the madness to end.